March 20

Honestly, I didn't want to write tonight. Like my computer was shut down before I got the strong feeling thaf I needed to do this. So here I am. Nothing happened today, but I still felt that I needed to do this. Please pray for me on that!

As you can tell, I'm going to start labeling my posts by the day instead of the Walk. My inability to hold myself to my word has produced this change. Can't you tell I'm just thrilled about letting myself down? Anyways, characteristically of me, I didn't read. During the three free hours I had at work today, I decided to watch Gossip Girl instead of helping myself catch up on reading. Honestly, I don't see why more people don't think I'm awesome. Today was relatively normal. And I forgot to take pictures. So here goes nothing.


Good things on the 20th of March:
- managing to get to class and only half failing a quiz.
- having an easy day as secretary. I did really enjoy watching Gossip Girl all afternoon though.
- getting an awesome cup from TAB Tuesdays. The student activity board always gives away free stuff on Tuesdays during Dead Hour.
- watching Abduction online. It was pretty good!


Yeahhh... So when I make posts from my iPod, I don't know how to edit the positioning of the paragraphs. You all know that I'm a sucker for center alignment in my posts. Also, I don't know if I'm able to change font size and just change it itself. Some of the things in this post realllyyyy needed some bold or italics. Like the word realllyyyy back there.

Man... I won't get to color my heart either at the end. Oh well!

<3 MG

Hey there.

I feel like a meek, 

apologetic child,

confessing a wrong to you...

because I've come to tell you this.

I am sorry.

I failed.

I flopped.

And sadly,

and so very characteristically of me,

I lived up to my own expectations.

I told you I would do this.

You do realize that it's been 

umm.....

what now...

a month and a half? 

More?

I don't know. 

And I'm sorry.

I'm truly sorry.

Can I say what I'm sorry for?

I need it,

to give myself a small sort of catharsis.

Maybe even give you a legitimate reason for you to forgive me.

But alas,

we all know that they'll all just be excuses.

I'm sorry for not writing.

I'm sorry I let you, 

yes all four of you,

down.

I'm sorry I let myself down.

I'm sorry I fell into my own predictions.

I'm sorry that I thought I could finally stick with something.

I'm sorry that I couldn't live up to it.

I'm sorry I wasn't consistent with my Bible reading.

Oh, I am so so sorry for that.

I haven't read consistently since I stopped blogging.

You know what made me stop?

Laziness.

With a tad of sickness.

But,

mainly laziness.

But I can tell it's changed me.

I don't feel the same as when I was reading everyday.

My relationship with God doesn't feel as strong.

I feel like I've let Him down somewhat. 

The other day though, 

I had a revelation.

An epiphany really. 

I can keep blogging even though I'm behind in reading.

It seems like a facepalm moment,

I know.

It seems so incredibly simple.

Duhhh huhhh.

Why wouldn't you keep blogging just because you're behind in reading? You wanted to blog about every walk, and every day. So do it.

  Yeah.

Simple.

I just...

I don't know.

My brain was just stuck on this thought that,

I had to be on track.

That,

no one would want to hear

or that you would think less of me if I didn't blog "on schedule".

Now that it comes out as an actual thought on "paper,"

it sounds so incredibly stupid.

So yes,

 I may be

*cough cough*

four

*cough cough*

books behind,

and yes,

I may not be finishing the Bible in a year unless I majorly catch up,

but that's okay.

At least I'll be reading it all the way through.

I think that counts more than a time frame.

When I read the Bible again,

and I vow that I will,

maybe then I can put myself on a more strict time frame.

For now though,

just sticking with it is what I need to do.

Honestly,

it was re-reading Andie's back story on Can You Stay For Dinner? tonight that made my guilt reach an all new high.

It made me feel passionate to pick this up.

For about this last weekend,

I've been like "Yeah I'll pick it up again... maybe tomorrow...".

But reading her story,

made me realize that maybe mine really can help someone.

Maybe it'll matter to someone.

If not,

at least it's a diary to me.

Because honestly,

I love to look back at random diary entries I've written during middle school,

and see what and how I thought.

So, to conclude this post,

prepare yourself for a slew of Instagram photos.

And of course,

their explanations.

<3 MG 

This is when they were barely peaking out!

This is me trying to do the hair curl thing again. This time it didn't work so well. How bad was it you ask? Let's just say that it ended with me cutting one of the head bands in a frantic attempt to make it to class on time.

I had lunch with the family! This is the sick weekend I talked about earlier. They came up on a Sunday afternoon. I slept most of the day that Friday and that Saturday I literally dragged myself out of bed and to the movie theater and like 2 in the afternoon. Even then it took too much effort. Anyways, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close is a great movie. Not as tear jerking as I thought it would be, but still good.

My Momma is gorgeous.

I've become a real Starbucks addicted if you can't tell by the numerous times it will appear throughout this post.

I'm pretty sure I took this picture simply for the fact that the bubble looked psychedelic.

I was bored. It was laundry day. My eye hurt and was red because I got a stye. Enough said.

I think this was on the road going to Grandma's for dinner.

We were at Samurai's for Mom's birthday! Gosh... that was Feb. 12th...

Such an... interesting... family.

The salad dressing at Samurai's is the BOMB.COM

Did I mention that it's hibachi?

Hibachi chicken with double rice = the best meal evah.

Josh was lame and got noodles.

Oh you know, just creeping on Josh walking Charlie.

Annndddd this starts the small slew of how I spent my valentines. The theme? Alone with a lot of sweets. Typical.

This is why I'm glad my mother works at a store that sells delicious chocolates!

Rachel, Laura, Kelly, and I split this lovely heart shaped pizza!

I found these the other day in a jar in my dorm room. Good times, good memories :)

I was crafting it up by painting some random wooden pieces and using "watercolors" (I just put water in the paint... shhh!)

BCM Winter Formal night! This is the lovely Anna :)

And this would be Rachel and Laura, respectively.

This would be Jessica and Anna, respectively.

And then there's me.

Tennessee has the most bipolar weather. It decided to snow real big one day.

At least it was pretty.

And then it decided to be warm enough that I got a shaken Tazo tea at Starbucks instead of my winter usual of Peppermint Hot Chocolate.

It's always fun to eat dinner at 10:30 at night!

This is from the week that I had to act as secretary just about every day because Helen was out.

I was obviously productive during that time... I drew a lot of Princess Madelyn pictures.

Foxes are so boss.

Darwin the Dinosaur is the epitome of every Spanish project I had during Junior and Senior year of high school.

I've decided that if I ever get a tattoo, it will be close to this only in white ink.

Racquetball time!

The purpose of this picture is to show you the loveliness of my face after getting hit full force with the racquet ball.

Oh, if you are a stranger to my racquetball posts, this is Bradley (blue shirt), Justin (black shirt), and Savannah (tie-dye shirt).

We had a lovely night of Mexican food and movies one night.

Justin and Emily.

Savannah and Bradley.

You can't get Mexican without ordering cheese dip. It's unorthodox.

Justin only half failed at setting up the movie.

Adding to the craftiness hanging around our room :)

Stats on a Sunday night.

One of the first gorgeous days!

"I mustache you a question!"

Fishtailed my huurrrrr.

Umm yeah. A professor decided that it was necessary for me to take one of her five bags of "salad greens".

The beauty after a storm. I had been stuck in the basement for a tornado drill. Bleh.

They're growing some more!

All packed with no where to go! My parents didn't want me driving to Knoxville with impending weather doom on the forecast.

So instead, I made a storm shelter pack. Which I proceeded to forget once the alarm went off for us to actually go to the basement.

I spent the rest of the evening watching this and The Little Mermaid.

This starts my visit to Knoxville pictures. Free samples at World Market when I was visiting Paige!

The reason I drove to Knoxville. My lovely BFF from high school :)

This stuff was amazing.

Annnddd here come the Puppy Zone pics!

We went to McAlister's for lunch. I proceeded to make this with the parts of my potato I didn't eat.

They obviously loved me there.

This I found when I returned home from Knoxville. It is probably one of the most special gifts I have ever received. Even though I wasn't supposed to know who it was from, my Dad leaked that it was from the Welborns. Mr. Steve had to have surgery like I did, except his was to take care of his colon cancer. He has been through more trials and had to go through SO much more with his ostomy than me, but he still has the best mindset. We're bag buddies, we are :) But God has used us for each other as ministries. One thing my dad said that hit me was "You may not know it, but you are a ministry for him." It may not mean much to you, but it hit me. At BCM this past week, people were sharing stories of how God has blessed them over spring break by going on a mission trip to New York City. It made me think. No, I may not have done something for someone that week, but God still blessed me. Maybe, being a ministry for someone who feels helpless a bit, could help them feel better about their situation. Whether it does or not, helping him out is a blessing to me.

If you ever have the chance to watch this video series, I encourage you STRONGLY to do it. They will change the way you think, for the better of course.

Going to lunch with Mom and Grandma!

This place had the BEST chicken taco salad.

This picture marked the day when I was no longer an ENO virgin.

Joel's band concert.

She found a worm while digging... ew.

ENO love <3

Taking this guy for a walk always makes my day.

I've missed this place a lot.

Pottery Barn store. Get excited.

LOOK AT THAT CRAZY HAIR. LOOK AT IT.

My nails = awesome.

Haha you've gotta love the tension in the car of a parent trying to teach a teenager how to drive on the interstate.

St. Patty's Day was spent at the Biltmore. Can I just live there please?? It was AMAZING. Since interior design is what I'm studying, this was like a paradise. I was soooo nerdy though. In class, we're discussing different styles of furniture that mark time periods. In preparation for this trip, I made a check list... of furniture styles to look out for. Who, except for me, does that??

The Bass Pond at Biltmore.

I had an eye appointment during spring break, and I had to finally get glasses. I don't think I've had a new pair since I got contacts in like the sixth grade.

They're getting so big! I bought a couple more! Now we have Forget-Me-Nots, Strawberries, more Strawberries, Sunflowers, and Daisies, respectably!! So excited for one to finally bloom!