I was going through an old notebook in my room, and I found a "diary" entry. I say "diary" because I never was very good at writing daily in a journal.
"I just hate it, I hate that I'm sick. I hate shoving pills down my throat. I hate that I'm not better, that they're not working. I hate that I don't know what I want for my life. I hate that the college that I loved and was really happy to go to doesn't have the accreditation I apparently need. I hate that that adventure was ripped away from me. I hate that I feel my only option is to go to a school that I don't like that much. I hate that I can't be a good girlfriend. I hate that I make hi life awful. I hate that I get jealous so easily now. I just wish I wasn't like I am."
I am so so so thankful for where God has brought me in my life. He brought me to the school I love, and brought me out of a relationship that was detrimental, and slowly, day by day, He's healing my body. His timing is perfect. He brought me through all of those things. I'm not sure why I had to experience what I've experiences, but I know that it's in His plan, and He'll use my story for His glory.
<3 MG
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