April 8

Happy Easter to all!

Today was pretty wonderful,

tuhh be real honest witchu.

Easter service was really good.

Brother Ken shook it up with a message from 1 Kings.

Yeah,

you try preaching Easter out of the Old Testament,

it's not as easy as it seems.

The choir and orchestra was kicking though!

Afterwards, 

my family and I went to my Great Grandmother's house

to celebrate.

That's my Mom's side.

I loved that.

I don't think I've been to one of their family functions

in well over a year.

It was nice to see everyone.

But.

There were so many preggo women and random kids.

I feel like there's always someone new there.

Anyways,

there was lots of candy too.

But most importantly,

today we celebrated the fact that

Jesus rose from the grave.

He died,

and three days later

He was alive again.

It's so...

mind blowing.

He is so miraculously powerful.

Our God died for us,

and then came back to life,

and yet we constantly doubt His power.

That makes us look like the biggest idiots of all time.

I also have to thank God,

because Walter's bag held from Saturday morning to tonight,

well,

Sunday night I guess I should say.

It's not as long as it should be,

but I'm thankful that I didn't have to deal with any mess during festivities.

I hope God will let this bag stay.

However, 

I have noticed that Walter has been bleeding.

It's normal for a little blood,

but this is more than the spot or two there usually is.

It's enough to concern me.

I'm dead set now on calling the Wound Ostomy Nurse at Vanderbilt tomorrow.

If only I can find the number...

Oh well.

I'll Google it.

That's valid, right?

It's so crazy though.

I basically have two weeks until my next appointment,

three until Dad comes up to get some of my stuff,

and just a month until school is officially over.

It's sort of scary that my Freshman year just flew by.

It's been a whirlwind of sickness,

school work,

frustration,

socializing,

and hospital visits.

I know God has a lot in store for me next year too.

Can I do a small...

comparison, if you will.

Yeah yeah, this can turn into whining at any second. Blah Blah Blah.

 I think,

I may be the only girl on the planet

who is semi-normal,

who can go through her entire first year of college,

and not have a guy like her.

I guess I just have to accept that it's truly

not

in God's plan for me right now.

I guess I understand.

Going through this with someone,

would be an ordeal.

Honestly,

I wouldn't go through this with someone,

unless I knew I was going to be with them forever.

Plus,

experiencing this with someone who I wouldn't marry,

it just gives part of me

and my memories

away to someone.

And I can't get those back,

and they can't get rid of them,

and my husband will never have them.

Not that he'd necessarily want those memories,

but the fact that he experienced a life-changing event with me.

That tends to draw people closer.

So for now,

I have you to spill it all to.

Anyways,

my computer is yelling at me that it's out of power.

Goodnight, lovelies.

<3 MG