Walk 26

This dry and desert land
I tell myself, “Keep walking on”
Hear something up ahead
Water falling like a song
An everlasting stream
Your river carries me home
Let it flow, let if flow

A flood for my soul
A well that never will run dry
I've rambled on my own
Never believing I would find
An everlasting stream
Your river carries me home
Let it flow, let it flow

Open the heavens
Come Living Water
All my fountains are in You
You're strong like a river
Your love is running through
All my fountains are in You

Come on, and rain down on us
Rain down on us, Lord

Man,

I really love that song. 

I've had it on repeat for hours.

Literally,

hours.

Good things on the 26th of January:

•  Having a good day of classes.
• Printing out paper that should have been printed out long ago.
• Not having to work.
• Getting some good advice from an old friend.
• Getting to wear my rainboots because it was drizzly today.
• Getting a letter from my Granny in the mail.

So remember all my smiley and frowny faces lately?

I won't put anymore on here.

And I'll try not to post any more mushy stuff.

It was silly,

and stupid.

It was just a guy.

There's a bazillion out there.

you only know him through class?
yeah
I see him like a lot though

just not enough to hold conversations

like

I noticed he had some fitness class that walks in the quad when I go to work

and I just saw today that apparently he has a class after me in the same room that i'm in
actually,

those are the only two times i see him besides class

but it actually ends up being like everyday

you need to actually hold a few conversations in real life then

can't just start texting him

...

i dont have his number
 you best get it
 and how do you expect me to do that?
 you need to bump out of your comfort zone and actually talk to him
 i know i know i do

I have never

ever
 developed any sort of... romantic interest in anyone out side of a pre established set of friends.
I don't work from nothing, and I've never tried because I've never been faced with that
i've asked multiple people for advice and i've googled it and found a wholle useful list
 well I'll be honest with you

usually when people come to me and tell me something like that, and it's pretty often, I just tell them to give up on it.

I wouldn't tell you to do that, but that's just how I feel about that sort of thing
why?
because I think that kind of thing is just hormones. I don't believe that anyone has any thing outside of a crush on someone unless they actually KNOW the person

After getting some good advice from my friend,

I decided not to pursue what I wanted.

This is my face for how I feel. It says, "oh well..."

I knew my friend was right.

I also have known that I'm going to end up marrying my best friend.

So whoever I date 

needs to at least be a trustworthy friend first.

I've not even had a real conversation with the guy I like.

So,

I'm not going to be worried about it anymore,

and I won't obsess about when I'll see him next.

It makes me a little sad,

but that's okay.

At least this time,

I can say that the guy was pretty worthy of my liking.

I just wish I knew how I could/could've made it work.

Oh, well.

Maybe,

just maybe,

I can be friends with him.

But,

I know it'll probably just be an acquaintance.

You know,

one where you just say hi in passing.

Because I am awesome,

and that's the type of friendships I make.

So Walk 26 was all about the civil and ceremonial laws

that God gave the people of Israel.

It was kind of interesting to read the laws that God had originally set for them to obey.

Sorry I can't write more,

Walter is being super farty.

I currently want to climb under my covers

and die of embarrassment.

I had to finally tell my roommate about him.

And it was awful.

After I told her,

the room was just quiet 

and Walter sat and farted 

really loudly 

for a good 10 minutes straight.

Kill.

Me.

Now.

Goodnight.

<3MG